The other night I woke up at 4:30 AM to a voice in my head saying "ONE DAY YOU WILL BE DEAD". As in, at some point in time the body that I exist in will no longer exist. No more brain function. I have suffered intermittently from a bit of anxiety around this subject and have tried really hard to not be scared of it anymore. Nothin I can do about it anyway. Sometimes when I have the thought of death I feel totally fine with it, I have faith and acceptance and no fear at all. I don't know why sometimes I'm alright with it and sometimes I'm not, maybe we don't get to 100% ok with it until its time. Maybe we never do. Or, I should say, maybe I never will.
It seems like this should be something that more people are talking about. Is anyone else apprehensive? Scared even? For some reason it doesnt really seem like it. When I bring it up to other people that I sometimes have this anxiety or fear they mostly just say things like "huh."
Ah the grim reaper. Stay away.
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